Never felt this way

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This will be an emo post. If you are looking for something funny and you don't like this particular post, scram and begone. I don't conform in entertaining people only. I am a human.


In Life, one starts worrying once the well runs dry; not when the water is low. This is so true. I always take my things for granted. It is material things, but they are still important to me. And now that I am practically stripped off all my possessions, I am ''naked'' and empty.

Just like an empty bowl, I may look strong and tough outside but from within, I am scared, hopeless and empty. As if I was waiting for someone to pour something or put something inside me, I wait with paranoia. I wait aimlessly.

I get comments and advice to cool down and take it easy. It's very easy to say and very easy to listen. But it's damn hard to act it out let alone abide to it. So, to those who give me advice and tell me that material things are not important, and that I should be thankful because I am safe, I'm sorry guys, let me sulk in sadness first. It's an inevitable emotion.

I guess I am not as strong as everyone thought I am. Nor am I as bubbly as everyone figured I am. I am just like anyone of you. When something important is taken away, you sulk, you cry, you are saddened, you feel hopeless, you feel crushed deep within. I am no better than you. I am the same. With human feelings.

In the dark of all these things though, I learnt something valuable and that is please appreciate what you have right now. I am not saying those material things like iPod, $5000 MacBook, that Toyota Vios Sportivo or that $2000 mobile phone with GPS. I am saying assets like your family, your pet, your loved ones including friends. You never know when they will be taken away from you or when you would not have the chance to see them anymore.

Life is precious. And Life is absolutely unpredictable. We don't know when our last ''goodbye'' or ''I love you'' will be to others. When they are taken away, it's just like this broken bowl. Nothing can mend it and it wouldn't be the same anymore; only tears and fears will engulf you.

Please love me, JOsh